Archive for February, 2005

with my Grandpa


For those of you that haven’t heard, my Grandma passed away on Friday evening. Each night since she was admitted to the hospital on Tuesday, the doctors said they didn’t feel she would make it through the night. She sure showed them.

God was really with my grandma and my family during the long struggle. The nurse she had the first night used to work at the nursing home where my grandma stayed. She knew all about her, which comforted us all. We saw people we hadn’t seen in years and were surrounded by many friendly nurses. Mandino checked in regularly to see if she could help in anyway, which she did by just being there. My aunt was able to make the trip from New Jersey to be by her mom’s side. We all even went out to dinner at Pizza Hut which we all thought was impossible. It actually was a good experience and I think we all needed each other’s company and support. Everyone got the chance to visit with my Grandma and as the days passed she became weaker and weaker. On Friday she mainly slept and only opened her eyes a few times. My aunt had to catch a flight back on Friday afternoon but was happy to spend the time she did with her.

Kelly and I were able to get to the hospital on Friday around 11:15am. We sat with grandma for a long while and just talked while trying to let her rest. At some point a lady named “Ms. Dorothy” stopped by. She had also been friends with Mandy’s Nanny before she passed away. Ms. Dorothy stayed for a little while and shared stories with us about her visits with my grandma. She prayed for my grandma and even got her to open her eyes for a few minutes. At this point she asked us to hold our grandma’s hands and talk to her and tell her how much we loved her. She then listened to her struggled breaths and told us she was a nurse as well and that my grandma didn’t have long. This was something no other nurse had let us know even though we had asked and we appreciated it so much. God works in such mysterious ways. By having Ms. Dorothy there we were able to get past our fear of crying and talking with my grandma and we were able to tell her we loved her and that it was ok for her to go and that we would all be ok. This was something I’m sure my sister nor I ever thought we’d be saying. Despite all of our family’s efforts to let my grandma know it was ok to go to Heaven, she still wouldn’t go.

A little while later Kelly and I decided to go to the vending machines and grab some “dinner”. We sat and talked for a little bit in the corner of the room while snacking. One of the nurses came in and asked if grandma liked music because they had a cd player that we could use. We told her how much she loved to listen to music and how almost always the music was playing when we would visit. The nurse left to get the cd player and I mentioned to Kelly that I thought I would feel more of a “presence” in the room as time drew near but I didn’t feel anything yet so we must have more time with her. The nurse came in with the cd player and plugged it in and could not find the cd. She left the room to go look and a few seconds later my grandma took her last breath. We stumbled out of our chairs to get to her and hold her hands. At that time the CD fell from the top of the Cd player and my grandma was gone. We cried and held her hands for quite some time. Then I began to put the pieces together about the music and out of comic relief told the nurse that my grandma must not have liked the music. I knew right then that God was showing me that He is ALWAYS there and so I guess He told me.

My Grandma was one of the greatest people I’ve ever known. She was definitely stubborn too (Go Irish!). We also figured out why she didn’t go to Heaven sooner. While she was still living with my parents, she pouted one night about something and was storming to her room when my dad told her she should just go to her room if she was going to be that way. My Grandma stomped right back down and sat on the couch and said “If you are going to tell me to go to my room then I’m going to stay right here” (or something of those sorts). So now we understand that my grandma was not going to go to Heaven when we told her to but when she was ready to go herself.

Rest in Peace Grandma! Have a good dance with Grandpa!

a little update


I called my mom this morning and they said the hospital called them around midnight last night to warn them that my grandma might not pull through the night. They didn’t call me or my sisters to keep us from worrying. This morning Kelly called for an update and the nurse said she seemed to be doing a little better but she wasn’t out of the woods yet. Tonight Justin and I plan to drive to Brevard to see her and see if we can help out my parents or sister.

Thank you for your continued prayers.

on a lighter note…


I wanted to wish my friend and college roomie, Melissa a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! I won’t say how old she is because….I know she’d kill me. Have a good one!

prayers needed


Today around 5:30 or 6pm my sister Kelly called me to let me know that my grandma was going to the hospital. My dad was at work but left to go see what was going on. Apparently they brought her to the hospital for “shortness of breath”. My mom just called me a few minutes ago to tell me they found that she has pneumonia in both of her lungs. She is 88 (89 the end of this month) and has alzheimers. My dad said she can’t stand having tubes and wires on her and keeps forgetting what they are for and trying to take them off. She says she is really tired too and has a hard time breathing. They are going to keep her overnight in a regular room and said they will let her leave tomorrow if nothing changes.

I REALLY don’t like that hospital! Almost the same thing happened to my other grandma there. They made light of the situation and told us she would come home the next morning. That morning was when we got the phone call that she had passed away. I’ve not heard good news at all about that hospital and I used to work there (volunteer). I know how they take their time doing things and slack off.

I really wanted to post to let you know of the situation and ask for your prayers, that no matter what, God’s Will be done and to pray for me and my family as we wait. Thank you all so much! You have always been there for me and I’ll keep you posted as I find more out.

my valentine…


My Valentine isn’t just around on February 14th. My Valentine is with me everyday. He kisses me each morning to welcome the new day and holds me close everynight as we fall asleep. He makes funny faces at me just to get me to smile. He even pushes enough buttons sometimes until I decide I can be mad or just laugh at how silly he is. My valentine hugs me when I need it and sometimes just “because”. He holds my hand when we go places and even opens doors for me. My valentine is honest, kind, loving, warm, and awesome! I love to catch him sleeping on the couch. That way I get to stare at him when he doesn’t know. Times like that I really get to think about how lucky I am to have him. And right now…I’m the happiest woman in the world because I get to get in my car and drive straight home to him. If you haven’t guessed it yet, I’m talking about my cat 😉 just kidding. I’m talking about my awesome husband! I’m sorry if this is too mushy but hey, today is a mushy day hehe. And for those of you that are choosing to celebrate “Singles’ Awareness Day” I encourage that also. Who knows you might just celebrate it with your future Valentine….I did 😉 It all started with a half eaten roll of orange creamsavers as a Single’s gift and look where we are now. Happy 14th!

just too bad…


I just found this article and couldn’t help but laugh. It’s just too bad I don’t need it anymore…but I thought it might be useful for some of you. Why didn’t I think of it sooner 😉 Funny stuff!

Happy Birthday!


I’m not sure if you read this regularly or at all but…..Happy Birthday Anna!!!!! I hope you have a great one!

my little pony


Java is continuing to grow all the time. I’m always afraid for her to sleep because I know when she wakes up she will be a foot taller haha. Yesterday she was able to get up on the bed without help. Sometimes when she runs at me she reminds me of a little baby pony. She has learned how to sit…most of the time on command. Last night Justin and I were watching a movie and we looked around and both our boys (the cats) and Java were sleeping…Pixel on the chair, Apache on the loveseat, and Java next to us on the couch. It was one of those sweet moments when all seems right with the world.

In a few months Justin and I will be a part of our church Relay for Life team again. We did it last year and had a really good time and got to know more people from the church. This year I’m excited that I might be able to bring Java along to walk with and for motivation.

Well, I’m gonna get started with some work and just hope that this day flies so the weekend can start.