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why is it that no matter how many times you have heard something and agreed with it, that you always end up failing to do it? there are so many times that i either hear something or read something from the bible that is just screaming “listen bonnie!” and at the time i say “oh yeah” and then even days later i find myself continuing on with my way as if i hadn’t heard/seen it at all. then awhile down the road i’m reminded yet again and the cycle continues. i know i’m not the only one out there. doesn’t everyone yearn for someone to tell them exactly what they are supposed to be doing in life? so often someone does and we are too blinded by our own selfish desires to listen. and how many of us hear that little voice in our heads telling us to do or not do something and no matter how loud that voice gets we still choose to ignore it? how many of us take each and every second for granted as if we will have the next one and the next one only later to hear on the news of some freak accident that took the life of a little one or an unexpected illness claiming the life of someone’s loved one? i know you are thinking (as well as i am even typing this) that yeah yeah these are all great points but who cares. but really shouldn’t we all care? for in the next second i or you could die of a fluke accident whether it be a heart attack or a gun shot, both of which seem highly unlikely but don’t you think the people it happens to thought the same thing? and another thing….don’t you find it eerily funny that the people you find yourself judging at first sight often end up being your best friend or in some form a better friend to you than you ever thought possible? isn’t it funny how God works? how He can stick the very thing in your face that you try so hard to avoid? life is funny but God is even funnier. i’d like to spend a day with God and watch all the amazing things He can do…..but then again don’t I have that opportunity everyday? A friend to pop up just when you least expect it, a new born baby, a beautiful sunrise/sunset, hugs, kisses, that little tingle in your tummy when someone you love looks your way, the stars at night, dreams to follow, family and friends, a not so graceful moment just so you will take a moment to laugh at yourself, jelly donuts :), etc. thank you God!
Bonnie, this is Justin’s Mom, Gloria. I read what you wrote about Justin, and I appreciate you writting it. The pain of losing Justin is unbelieveable and unbearable. Since Justin’s death I’ve had such a void in my heart, having people who knew Justin and to write about him means so much to me. Like most mothers love their children, I loved Justin and yes thought he was a spectacular person, and will always ove him and think he is spectacular. Justin was an amazing son, who did amazing things against considerable odds in the short amount of time given him to accomplish them. In doing so, he set an example for those to follow, thouches many lives, provided inspiration for untold numbers of people, loved and was loved. This was his legacy. I do understand this separation from Justin is not permanent, the connection and bond we have with each other will never be broken. Justin, is still the most important person in my life and he always will be . Justin because he is not here on earth physically doesn’t mean he is not with me every second of every day. Justin, is in my heart and will remain there forever. I must say, I don’t really know how I have made it since Justin passed away, I don’t know how I will make it through tonight much less tomorrow. The pain of losing Justin is so severe, I never thought I could have this much pain and still be breathing. Justin is the best person I have ever known in my entire life. I don’t know if you have seen some of the articles he has written about me, they are on the internet, Justin was and is a GREAT SON, and I miss him more than I words can express. I hope to hear back from you. Sincerely, Gloria (Justin’s Mom)